3.18.2007
At Home
Sorry, no pictures for this post. I don't know what to say. I just got back home today and its weird. It gets weirder and weirder every time. I was just putting some stuff away real quick and all of a sudden it felt like it was Christmas break again. It is definitely not though. Its spring break. I wish it was Christmas break again. I wish I could turn back time. It was a lot easier to see how good life was then. However, this break should be interesting to say the least. I am going to be in Riverside while about 90% of my friends are not. I will have to be creative with what I do. I am thinking the beach one day, maybe shots for ISP another, and slave labor around the house. I just hope that I will be able to relax this week. Think through things and clear my mind. I just can't stop feeling like I want to get out of Riverside for a long time. I know I would hate it as soon as I did it. I think I just need to get away from CBU for a long time. But everybody is there, I would hate getting away from there also... well at least until I graduate. Lately, I have just felt torn in two about a lot of things. Maybe I'll read some Donald Miller this week. Thats all. I don't want to get too emotional or anything. I wish I could say something manly to reaffirm my manliness, like "I have a beard," but I don't anymore. Dang. Just know that no matter what is going on, in the words of John Mayer, "know the heart of life is good."
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new layout... simple. and i love that John Mayer song; nice touch. tangent, but Im not sure i believe that quote. i was thinking that yesterday when we listened to it in the car. ill listen again today and get back to you.
i hate that torn feeling. like you feel alone, but your not sure who would actually, truthfully make things legitimately better, i mean for longer than a day in the actual real world. i hope that you are able to just relax over the break and just pray and think...
as for the manliness problem, which i dont think is a problem you have (save some of your more intimate moments with ryan), try eating red meat.
and lastly, making this one of the longest comments in your blogs history, we watched The Holiday last night, and there were so many things that Jack Black did that reminded me and amy of you. and that is a compliment...
p.s. northern california is beautiful! im glad i got out of the smog, even if it wasnt to Utah.
k well ill call you later this week.
jerm- i have felt that torn thing for awhile now and not just cause i'm graduating and actually have the opportunity to get out of riverside (even though i'm choosing to stay for a bit- crazypsycho i know but...) anyway, growing up in riverside kinda gives you that feeling. and i agree with jules- you don't have a manliness problem, but if you need more than just red meat you should try building something or breaking something. that always helps me when i'm feeling not so manly. oh, and the heart of life may not be good, but God always is, and i guess He is the heart of life so maybe the heart of life is good. now i just confused myself...
Jer-Bear,
Thanks for playing soccer with me today.
You're one of my favorite men in the world.
Have a wonderful Thursday bud. :-)
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